Charizard

Tonight, I'm still justifying my unproductivity with the fact that I worked really really hard last week and got NO sleep at all. However, though what I've done tonight may not manifest itself in papers or projects, I think what I've accomplished tonight is some much-needed inner work. Today I turned in the proper forms to change my major to Urban Studies in the fall, which would allow me to graduate a quarter early. Though I've pondered this idea for a couple days now, I've come up with a list of things to do with my newfound 10-weeks come next March. Though my list is undoubtedly growing, I'm afraid my confidence and excitement is not. What if I don't find a job? What if I don't make it? What if I sit on my lazy butt and get fat(ter)? Ideally, I would like to find a high energy, fun, and low-stress job that only requires me to work half-days--giving me time to take my walks and sit in silence. When thinking about my future, all I can picture is my ideal. I am afraid that anything less than perfect will result in a very unhappy me.

But as I strive for perfection--in more ways than just finding a perfect job, a perfect husband, or being perfect, I am finding out that there is no such thing as perfect in this world-- and no, I'm not saying we should all settle. I'm just saying that, personally, when I'm in that mode, on the search for perfection, I focus all the things that are not and easily miss all the wonderful things that are. As a continuation of my last post, I am thankful for good friends, graduating early, ducks, health, and family. Thank God for the things that are. Help me not to forget that.

（如果你看的懂．．．很棒！我每天都要十二點上床睡覺。）

roasted marshmallow

This past week was one of the most stressful weeks I've had in a really long time. By the end of it, I was relying on coffee to make it through the day. I am thankful that it's over. I am thankful there are only 5 more weeks left. I am thankful for my momma. YAYY.