For the last couple of days, I feel as though I haven't been able to think straight. I can feel myself going through the movements, but not actively thinking about what it is I'm doing. Can it be the lack of sleep? The lack of control? I feel like so much is going on, but in actuality, nothing really is. I'm not shaken by the commotion of all the "busy-ness", but I'm not totally unaffected either. I don't feel particularly productive, but I'm not beating myself up for it. I know I have things to do, but I'm not moved to do it. What is this numbness, this nonchalance?
I want to say that it's that I've finally realized that there's no point in doing a lot of the busy work I used to do anymore, and that I've found freedom in the fact that I don't HAVE TO do anything.
But then again, I don't want to pat myself on the back for a potential breakthrough, esp. when it could just be symptoms of being tired and PMS.
4 comments:
it's not symptoms of pms!!!!!
i like you, especially when you're cold to me. hehehe :)
anyways, lakers just lost.
&im home, miserable without you.
ai labaaayoooo <3
i was enjoying the post... and then that last comment about PMS... totally threw me off... TMI for me.
maybe too much is changing too fast. but its okay, i don't think its symptoms of being tired or PMS. i think its something bigger than that. :) but rest is important, so make sure you're getting a lot of that this weekend <3
ew, bcos i blocked it! you are soooo scary....
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